Super Star!

Sky loves to sing and preform he is just like his mom. We can not get him to stop singing Christmas songs and yesterday he discovered the guitar from guitar hero he thought it was pretty cool to "play" while singing! He kept singing this song over and over and over so I had to get it on video!

Having things put into Perspective!

I have been having so many deep thoughts the last few days and I cant get them off my mind, so I thought I would write them down were all can see! My sister Amy has helped me put things into perspective. First off I want to say that I love my Mom and Dad!

I have tried to break the cycle of negative thoughts I am a true believer of what you think is what will happen and if you have negative thoughts you will have a negative out come! As most of you know I grew up in a negative environment, not that I was abused or anything, but the atmosphere was not the best! I have had bitter feeling about this my whole life and I want to stop feeling this way. I remember when I first discovered that my mom was an alcoholic and not just the weird/funny mom that everyone thought. I was 13 and I became very angry with my mom. I was embarrassed and grew very distant from her! Growing up my mom would drink every single day and this wasn't just a drink it was until she could not function any more.
I never new how to deal with it and so I ignored it as best as I could and now that I am older and I have children I feel sad that I cant take my kids to see her because her house smells so bad of cigarettes and I would never trust her to babysit my kids. I would give anything to have a normal relationship with her and be able to visit her, call her on the phone after 5:00 with out wondering how drunk she will be. It makes me mad at my mom for the choices she makes every day to drink her alcohol and smoke even when the Dr. has told her she is dying because of it. They have told her that her organs are hardening and it is only a matter of time before it takes her life and not even this has made her stop with her addictions. Growing up with this was very hard also because I didn't have the other parent there to help us get through it my dad is an AMAZING man, but he was never home. I now realize that it was hard for him to face reality and was easier to be gone all the time. I was taught to be angry at life and that nothing was good enough, these thought have brought nothing but trial into my life and I have decided to STOP! I want to tell my parents I love them and I am not going to hold this anger anymore. I am grateful for all that they have done for me. I am also grateful for the relationship I have with my sisters, They are my BEST friends and I would never been able to get through all the hard times with out them!

Random

This is just a random post of a few thing that have been going on!

First a old friend of mine came to visit he lives in Oregon and hasn't been to visit for 8 years! It was kinda crazy to see him again, but so fun to catch up! He met my family and we went to dinner and then he came by on his last day to here to say bye. I am happy we got back in touch because he is such an awesome person and I hope we can remain friends!

On another note my friend Jamie who lives in Utah is moving to Arizona and we had a girls night to say goodbye. We went to Red Robin for dinner and to a movie it was so nice to get out and hang out with girls I had a great time. Then when it was time to say bye we all remember what we where there for and it was sad to say bye to Jamie, She is one of the sweetest people I have ever meet and we will miss her very much!

This is an update of my diet! there has been a change of plans L.A weight loss closed all there centers in Utah and transferred us to L.A on the go which is where a counselor calls you once a week to see how you are doing well needless to say that is not what I paid $500.00 bucks for. I had lost hope and the light at the end of my tunnel was now dim and I thought this was the end of getting healthy and I would be FAT forever!! So me and a lot of other people asked for a refund and we were assured that we would get it!! Well here we are 3 months latter and no one has gotten a refund or been able to get a hold of any one at the office for that matter! I kept in touch with my old counselor form my center who felt so bad that thing had gone so wrong and it was out of her hands, but she decided to start doing diet coaching, So I am taking a different approach to my diet I am seeing a personal diet coach and it has been great so far I like this allot and I am so excited to succeed I am down another 4 lbs this week and there is more where that came form! Thank you for all your support and love.

A new year and fun in the snow!

We hope everyone had a fun and safe new years! We sure did! We started it off with me learning how to sow. I got a sewing machine for Christmas and really wanted to learn how to use it, so my sweet sister in law came over and helped me figure out what the heck I was doing and you wont believe it I made 2 pair of pajama pants for my nieces. They actually turned out great I am very proud of my self. Then we played games monopoly and I won yeah me! I was going to let Sky stay up, but he feel asleep at 11:00. Nate and I haven't stayed up on new years for like 3 years Nate feel asleep at 11:30, but we woke him with a noise maker it was hilarious. I always try to make resolutions this year I only made a few.

1. Be a better mom have more patients with all the kids!

2. Be more diligent in my scriptures and prayers

3. Stay on a budget and get out of debt!

4. and of coarse get healthy and loose more weight!!

So my kids got snow pant this year for Christmas and they are obsessed with playing in the snow they are out there every chance they get! Nate is usually out being a big kid with them. Here are a few pics of them playing in the snow with one of the day care boys Levi who we just love to pieces!!!